Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The Search Is On

As I have mentioned in the past couple of posts, I have been contemplating looking for a new Daddy. I have given this a lot of thought and had some great advice from so many of you who read my blog, and tonight I took the first step. I posted a personal ad to begin the process. I even talked things over with J and he wished me the best of luck. He is, of course, not completely enthused with me looking for someone else, but he also wants the best for me.


I sometimes wonder if he is right - am I making a mistake walking away from something that clearly was amazing? Can I kneel in front of someone that isn't him? 



One of the most striking memories I have of us was the time at that conference last summer. After sucking his cock so furiously, he happily rewarded me by cumming that huge load all over my face. I can't forget how happy I was looking up at him as he looked down at me so appreciative and proud of me. He even took his finger and scooped up some of the cum that was dripping off my chin, poured it off his finger and into my mouth, letting me suck and swallow every drop of him. Words are hard to find to describe just how I felt at that moment, at home at his feet.


There really was only one sticking point that prevents us from being together, but to me, it is something that I really want. I want to be in a relationship. I want to know that he is always there for me and emotionally invested in us. I think it will help me to be even that more of a devoted sub and I can only imagine all that I would want my Dom to do with me once I have his commitment to me emotionally. I know that there is a big chance that opening myself up like this, I will only be hurt, but it is a risk and a journey I am willing to take. Only time will tell . . .

9 comments:

  1. i answered your add and you turned me down. i don think you know what a real master is and you def aren't a real sub. you are looking for a boyfriend, not a dom. you are jus a wanna be.

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  2. Hey Anon, you're wrong... I know her. She is very for-real. She is just looking for a bit more sophistication in her relationship.

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  3. I think the first guy is right. She may have rejected him because he can't spell and is a jerk, but I think this girl wants too much control to be a sub. The Dom makes the choices and determines what happens. The sub should just take it like a good little slut. Plus, hard to know if you really "know" her, Mr. Anonymous #2 since you are in fact unknown.

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  4. Sir Joseph, not true. I know her very well and we talk almost daily. But I am married with kids now so I have to be anon. My email address is in a preious blog of hers. I can prove to you that she is not fake. In fact, she is completely true to her calling.
    What she is looking for is a sophisticated D who will sometimes use a firm hand to guide her on her self-exploration as she contines to break through her barriers to bring him total pleasure. She is fully committed to serving her D and she knows her place. She knows that her body is just a vessel that belongs to her D and it is to be used for whatever he desires. It is not the physical acts that give her purpose, but the significance of those acts. She has learned that the more she does and the more she lets go of her selfish desires the happier she will be serving him.
    Why humiliate and brutalize an S who is already willing to do most anything for her D? It makes no sense. She is an intelligent woman who has a Masters and a very good job. She is interesting and has many interests. These traits accentuate the true S that she is when her D calls upon her to serve him. She wants to be challeneged, she wants to be pushed... no insulted and beaten.

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  5. Hi little one girl

    isnt it great that people can be so opinionated about you when they dont know you, probably because they arent getting their own way e.g. because you decided not to respond to them. Dont let people like this put you off your search or make you question yourself.

    Good luck with your search and i hope you find the happiness with the One you seek.

    blossom xx

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  6. To say she is a fake because she knows what she wants and is brave enough to air it for U to read is wrong & disrespectful...Just because a submissive wants a relationship does not make her less submissive...

    At least they were able to discuss it like adults and part ways...

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  7. I can't believe you are not getting flooded with offers?

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  8. Thank you as always blossom & prettyprimal!

    Latest Anonymous: I did get a lot of offers from guys that were either not a Dom, not looking for the same things I was, or just plain rude. Only a couple of possibilities that have not panned out yet.

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  9. I have been reading your blog for a while and I do not know what type of Dom you want. Why don't you tell every body what you want your Dom to be.

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