Which would best describe you: 1. Angel on the outside, devil on the inside 2. Devil in and out (and loving every minute of it) 3. Angel in and out (but the horns do come out once in awhile)?
More than likely, I would say number three. Sure I like kinky play and I love sex, but mostly, I am a good girl. Most people probably see me as the stereotypical pretty, nice “girl-next-door” type – which I am. I have to clarify though, contrary to popular belief - nice does NOT equal boring - I am far from it (which I hope you see from reading this blog). Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to show people my more sexual side more publically, or to tell people about my certain sexual escapades. But, for now, and for many of the reasons I have talked about before, it is my closely guarded secret.
Have you ever been tied up when there are several other people watching you and talking about how to and preparing to use you sexually?
No I haven’t. But, I will say that it is a nice fantasy that I have thought about. So far, I have only been with men (no women) and only one-on-one. A three-some, more-some, etc. is something that my former Dom, Daddy J, was training me for. We just ended things before we got to that point. Hopefully someday I will get to experience this!
Do you enjoy being watched?
I touched a little bit on this in my article for Gutter Magazine this week when I was answering a guy who wrote to me about trying to get his girlfriend to masturbate in front of him more often. A while ago, I used to play sexually with a neighbor of mine, MP. Many times that I would go over there, he would love to ask me to just play with myself in front of him. More recently, Daddy J asked me to film myself when I played. I did and I watched it before I sent it. I didn’t like it. I wanted to trash it, but being a submissive to him, I had to do as I was told. He loved it and watched it all the time to get himself off. The act itself of being watched didn’t get me excited, but the fact that someone was watching me, getting turned on by me and something I was doing definitely got me all worked up. I love thinking of myself as a desirable object and sometimes that means being a little bit of an exhibitionist.