I truly feel like a Sandra Bullock in “Miss Congeniality” – A fish out of water. How in the world did a little quirky girl like me find myself in the running in a Blog contest sponsored by a mainstream newspaper? Not to mention, how could a completely anonymous outsider even put up a decent fight in a contest in which a super-talented and tight-knit blogger community usually fights to support each other? I couldn’t begin to tell you all of the planets and stars that aligned and came together to make it happen, but I can say I have the best readers in Baltimore (and beyond) because we did it. We won a Mobbie!
It hasn’t quite been a full year since I started this blog, but this is the time of year we generally take time for reflection. So, I wanted to pause to celebrate all of the friends I have met throughout this new journey and who have made this all possible. Although the direction of this blog has changed significantly since day one of my first post, I feel so connected to writing and expressing myself with all of you. Here are just a few things that I am thankful for.
I have said it many times: things really changed in my sexual life when we first got together over 5 years ago. Almost as soon as we met, I knew he was someone who would definitely compliment me both mentally and sexually. I’m extremely smart and determined, so it takes a very strong and confident man to be able to challenge me, but that is exactly what I need. I need the push and the support to continually grow. However, I never could have imagined the path which he would lead me to want to explore. I still am a little in awe that he saw my submissiveness in me, even when I didn’t know it was there. I have always had my limits and my boundaries, and he has always respected them. But in addition, he knew when I was ready to move past things and he was able to direct me to things I never thought I would be able to do, let alone enjoy. He recognized my strength and encouraged my determination to always do my best. Even though we are no longer together, I know that I would not be where I am if he hadn’t seen my potential and made me believe in my true gift. He had me start this blog to document my training and to share myself with him. He knew how much I enjoyed writing and I don’t know if he completely meant to, but by having me start this blog, he also gave me a freedom of possibilities with my writing. That is a debt that I will never be able to repay and for which I am truly grateful. I only hope to continue to make him proud of his formet little girl.
This blog started as a personal journal and training manifest between me and Daddy J. Somehow, word got out about my little space in the interwebs, and more and more of you started reading. One random night, in my eagerness on Twitter to ogle over John Waters & Mink Stole, my quips caught the eye of JMG. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that witty exchange would lead me to be the Sex Columnist for a great online magazine. JMG and the crew have been so welcoming, even though many have never met me. Thank you for giving this small town girl a shot in the big city and letting me share my over-the-top honesty with you and your readers. I am genuinely PROUD to be included in the Gutter Family. Thank you also to JMG for being a good friend to me and keeping my identity a secret, as I know it hasn’t always been easy. You are the best!
You – My readers:
I honestly thought when I started writing that no one would want to read what I wrote. In addition to that, even if people did read it, I didn’t know that they would connect with me as much as they have. Over the past year, so many of you have written to me and showed your amazing support and understanding. I have loved being able to answer your questions, listen to your advice and maybe give you some of my own, have chats with some of you, and even get the chance to know so many of you. I mean it when I say that I truly care for all of you. Please know that your honest and genuine support is what keeps me writing and wanting to continue my journey. I know that my posting has been infrequent as of late, but I do vow to rectify that. I would like to make a pact with all of you: Keep writing to me, keep inspiring me, and keep after me and, in return, I will keep writing and entertaining you. I think it is a pretty sweet deal, don’t you?
Also, thank you from the bottom of my heart for voting for me to win the Baltimore Sun Mobbie Award for Best Reader Engagement Blog! I didn’t know much about the contest before it began, nor did I think a blog of this subject material would be able to be nominated for an honor from a mainstream, family-friendly publication. But alas, you nominated me, kept up the fight, voted and moved me to a win. I am incredibly humbled that you all thought I deserved such an achievement and I would NEVER have been able to do it without you.
I love answering questions and hearing from you so feel free to drop me an email and be sure to also follow me on my Tumblr and Twitter, and at Gutter Magazine online.
P.S. A very special reader shout-out also goes to MP, thanks for being a great friend for so long - your support means a lot to me! And to TNG Baltimore: Thank you for welcoming a very nervous and shy me a few months ago. I promise to come out more in the future.