Sunday, June 9, 2013

Sinful Sunday #113: Support

If you follow me on Twitter, it comes as no surprise to you that I've had a rough couple of months emotionally. There are lots of factors that have played into this: family issues, stress from work, sexual frustration, dating woes, etc. For some reason thought, I couldn't exactly pinpoint any one thing I could do to overcome the weight of the sadness and loneliness. I tried relaxation techniques, music, movies, exercise, and all worked in some way for a little while. But ultimately, I would still wind up sitting in my house, struck with insomnia crying into my pillow.


People don't follow me and read my blog and articles at Gutter Magazine for me to be Emo. They follow me for sexy adventures, outspoken advice, sex positive information, and probably to get a few rocks off. I did lose followers, so I do thank those of you who stuck around. Many of you messaged me and told me that you supported me - the whole me - and that means a lot. One particularly rough Saturday afternoon, I was in my bed, in the fetal position, listening to Ellie Goulding and Keane, feeling particularly pathetic and I started messaging with a very kind follower. We had tweeted with each other previously, but this was a long afternoon, into night conversation. He said something that struck a chord with me and I found it particularly sweet.

I could just feel his sincerity as we wrote back and forth. I knew he wanted to console me and try to make things just a little bit better, in any way he could. Sometimes, kind words and gestures are all we really need to feel like we are not alone in this crazy life. I don't know him personally and he doesn't know me except for what I have shared in my writing and pictures. Hell, he doesn't even live in the same state as me. But he took a lot of time out of his day and night to really talk to me and listen.

Am I still insecure? Somewhat. Do I still feel vulnerable? Of course. In order to get something out of life, you have to put yourself out there. No one comes knocking on a door when it looks like no one will answer. That risk of opening up and letting people in scares me more than I would like to. But I know I still have to do it. It's just nice to know that in the event I do get hurt by chances I take, I feel very lucky to have people like him on my side.

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6 comments:

  1. Oh those were lovely comments. Sometimes, we are all brought low. I'm glad someone was able to help lift you up...

    I often have the same problem, and I've been told flat out that I intimidate some men. Glad you had the moment of brightness. Xoxoxoxo

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  2. What a lovely friend you have. I have also been here, and often it was the kindness of people I know only from the internet who made me feel less rubbish, who made me feel like I have a friend. I am glad you are feeling more positive.

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  3. I have found that the internet despite it's share of the crazy nut jobs is actually hugely populated with truly awesome, thoughtful, interesting, funny, caring people.


    Mollyxxx

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  4. There are good people out here. We hope you find what you need.

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  5. I meant to say ... we got out of shitty marriages and shortly afterwards found each other via the interwebs. That was 12 years ago, :)

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  6. I am sorry that you are having a rough time with it. You deserve better. - your former neighbor

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